stay close dont go - secondhand serenade

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,

is it half empty of our wins or have i ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
but look through that
and you will see,
I'll do better, I know,
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
amazed how I somehow managed to
sweep you off your feet girl,
your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted what you do.
But I'll do better, I know
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

And don't you know my heart is open, oh,
it's putting up the fight,
and I've got this feeling,
that everything's alright,
and don't you see,
I'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone,

(stay)If you leave me tonight,
(close) I'll wake up alone,
(don't)don't tell me I will
(go)make it on my own,
(stay)don't leave me tonight,
(close)this heart of stone
(don't) will sing till it dies
(go)if you leave me tonight.
Don't leave me tonight

(Thanks to Erin for these lyrics)

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
is it half empty of our wins or have i ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
but look through that
and you will see,
I'll do better, I know,
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
amazed how I somehow managed to
sweep you off your feet girl,
your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted what you do.
But I'll do better, I know
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

And don't you know my heart is open, oh,
it's putting up the fight,
and I've got this feeling,
that everything's alright,
and don't you see,
I'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone,

(stay)If you leave me tonight,
(close) I'll wake up alone,
(don't)don't tell me I will
(go)make it on my own,
(stay)don't leave me tonight,
(close)this heart of stone
(don't) will sing till it dies
(go)if you leave me tonight.
Don't leave me tonight

something hurt ?

sometimes i feel like i really miss everything in the past,
but when i remember about something hurt in there, that's really sucks .
something hurt that including someone that was make it for me .
i always think that i should be able to forget about something hurt .
but i can't when i try to forget, i feel like i really hate about it, everything about it .
and i don't know why can't i forget it, why can't i like everything about him .
he always be in the wrong time, when i feel i'm happy, suddenly i saw him,
or there's something that make me remember about him and my past .
you know, i don't know what to do,
no one can understand what i feel except my self,
people in easy say "udahlah lupain aja, kan cuma masa lalu" or "sabar ya",
or "don't be like that it will hurt your self " or just smile,
oke thanks about it\, but i cant do that .
i never feel comfort with this,
one of my friend say,  " someone who hurt you is someone who makes you stronger, and never hate them because one day they'll feel the same ;) "
that's right,
but i don't know what this feeling meant,
"somettimes when someone hurt you, you will hate what he does for you, but you can't hate him ever"
and i don't know, the words above is right or wrong,
but i really want forget everything about him, everything :(

that should be me

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreadin' 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you did with me,
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the mem's that you made with me
Cause baby I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
'Till you believe that
That should be me
That should be me

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you used that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
What you doin' to me
You're taking him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
It's working cause you know that

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
'Till you believe
That should be me

I need to know should I fight for love
Or disarm
It's getting harder to shield
It's breaking my heart

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
'Till you believe

That that should be me
(Holding your hand)
That should be me
(The one making you laugh (oh baby oh))
That should be me
That should be me
(Giving you flowers)
That should be me
(Talking for hours oh)
That should be me
That should be me

That should be me
Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
I never should've let you go
That should be me

wise words

orang berilmu dan beradab tidak akan diam di kampung halaman
tinggalkan negerimu dan merantaulah ke negeri orang
merantaulah, kau akan dapatkan pengganti dari kerabat dan kawan
berlelah-lelahlah, manisnya hidup terasa setelah lelah berjuang

aku melihat air menjadi rusak karena diam tertahan
jika mengalir menjadi jernih, jika tidak, kan keruh menggenang

singa jika tak tinggalkan sarang tak akan dapat mangsa
anak panah jika tidak tinggalkan busur tidak akan kena sasaran

jika matahari orbitnya tidak bergerak dan terus diam
tentu manusia akan bosan padanya dan enggan memandang

bijih emas bagaikan tanah biasa sebelum digali dari tambang
kayu gaharu tak ubahnya seperti kayu biasa
jika di dalam hutan

-Imam Syafii'

miss my junior high school

kenapa ya setiap ngeliat foto foto jaman smp dulu,
aku tu ngerasa pengeeen banget balik ke masa itu .
aku tau, banyak kenangan yang spesial disana, tapi perasaan ada hal lain yang bikin aku sedih dan bner bner pgen balik ke masa itu .

aku kangen semuanya d smp, temen temen sekelas aku, sekolahnya, cerita cerita smp, bareng sama salaz dan yg lain aku kangen sama semua itu .
kangen kekompakan yang diciptain di kelas 9.1 Family, kangen mereka semua pas lagi hang out bareng, pas ulangan, pas dimarahin guru, pas dihukum, kangen ! kangen banget !
i really miss everything in my junior high school :'(
kangen pas aku bisa ngeliatin salaz setiap saat di sekolah itu,
kangen ngeliat dia main futsal sama temen temennya :(
sedih banget kalo ngeliat kenyataan ternyata sekarang aku udah SMA bukan lagi anak SMP kayak dulu .
tambah tua, tmbah usia, dan bner kata pepatah semuanya pasti akan pergi dan setiap ada awal pasti ada akhir .
mungkin aku bkal ngerasain perasaan kayak gini lagi pas lulus SMA nanti,
tapi aku pengen kumpul satu kelas bareng temen temen sekelas aku dulu .
pengen ngumpul dan cerita bareng, aku kangen kalian semuaaaaa :'(
"Kabinet Sembilan Satu Ayo Maju Indonesiaku I Love You"
itu semboyan kelas aku dulu, i really miss you friends .
dan aku juga inget pertama kali aku kenal sma yg namanya salaz protopan tu d smp ini .

masa masa terakhir d smp dulu diisi sama kebahagiaan yang aku lewatin bareng salaz protopan as my boyfriend :)
dan temen temen aku yang selalu ngedukung aku sama dia,
mereka yang selalu bantuin aku kl aku ada masalah sama dia, mereka selalu ada buat aku, sedih seneng, walaupun wktu itu sempet ada konflik sama sahabat baik aku, tapi beneran aku pengen bareng sama sama mereka lagi, aku kangen kita sharing bareng, nyelesain masalah bareng, belajar bareng, les igna bareng, naik angkot bareng, nonton bareng, dimarahin bareng, aku bener bner kangen sama kalian .
pengen belajar di kelas yang sama bareng kalian lagi .
semoga aja nanti suatu saat nanti tepatnya, kita bisa ngumpul bareng lagi yaa,
dan berbagi cerita lagi kayak dulu :*

love story by Ilana Tan

pertama kali aku tau novel Ilana Tan, pas aku baca "autumn in Paris" dan dari situlah aku mulai tertarik baca novel novel dia yg lainnya, kayak Spring in London sama Winter In Tokyo, tinggal Summer in Seoul nii blm dibaca, tpi dri 3 novel yang udah aku baca itu semuanya bner bner so sweet, terutama autumn in paris .
autumn in paris itu nyeritain seorang cwek sama seorang cwok yang  suka satu sama lain, dri perkenalan pertama, si cwok emang bner bner perhatian sama sii cwek, tpi ternyata gak disangka sangka mereka itu kakak adiik, dan akhirnya mereka terpaksa gak bisa nerusin hubungan mereka karena hbungan darah itu, tpi siapa nyangka pas mereka udh pisah sii cwokny meninggal, ceritanya itu bener bner bikin penasaran, sedih kalo bner bner baca dri awal sampe akhir, gak bisa ngebayangin kl aku yg ngalamin crita d novel itu, stelah udh lama dan udh bener bner nemuin cwok yg nyaman dan pas kyk gitu, ternyata hbugan itu dilarang, dan terpaksa harus diakhirin, pasti sedih banget .
bukan cuma itu aja, selain autumn in paris, spring in london dan winter in tokyo juga, punya cerita yang romantis banget .
dari kejutan kejutan yang dibuat cwoknya buat sii cwek, cara cwok itu ngehargain dan merhatiin cwek, bahkan sampe cara mereka ngelindungin cwek yg mereka syg, itu bner bner bikin critanya itu romantis, malah aku sempet ngayal kalo aja suatu saat nanti aku bisa dikasi surprise surprise romantis dan bisa dihargain sama dilindungin kayak gitu sama cwok yg syg sama aku .
apalagi cwoknya itu bener bener rela berkorban buat sii cwek, apapun dia lakuin biar cwek itu bahagia .

ada sedih, ada lucunya, dan banyak romantisnya itu novel karya Ilana Tan .
bikin terharu banget deh pokoknya ;)