something bout you and me

after he severed our relationship. i'm not sure about my feeling, my feeling bout him or bout love or something else.
i was hurt, and i don't know what to do,
i just pretend to always smile even i knew i was sad really sad and dissappointed.
i just can't believe that he was not believe me, he was not believe what i explained to him
and when he said, we better be as a friend than must stayed as a couple, i just couldn't say another words, i want to said no and refused, but i couldn't :(
and after one month. he said that he was really sorry and asked me to come back,
honestly, i really want it, i really want say yes, but i don't understand what's in my heart, what's in my brain, what's my feeling was
in the other side, i just want to stay together forever with him as a bestfriend, because i don't wanna lose him,
i want a happy friendship, not a worst relationship in the end
i don't wanna meet this situation again, it's enough, twice is enough,
and now me and you, we're still act like we're a couple that never broke up,
it's never mind if we act like this, but until when?
how it will be ?
i just don't have any idea about us,
but so far i feel comfortable enough with our friendhsip,
"friendship in a special relationship" :)